my_journey

Waktu bergulir lambat
Merantai langkah perjalanan kita
Berjuta cerita terukir dalam
Menjadi sebuah dilema

Mengertikah engkau
Perasaanku tak terhapuskan

Malam menangis
Tetes embun membasahi mata hatiku
Mencoba bertahan di atas puing-puing
Cinta yang telah rapuh

Apa yang kugenggam
Tak mudah untuk aku lepaskan

Aku terlanjur cinta kepadamu
Dan telah kuberikan seluruh hatiku
Tapi mengapa baru kini kau pertanyakan
Cintaku

Akupun tak mengerti yang terjadi
Apa salah dan kurangku padamu
Kini terlambat sudah untuk dipersalahkan
Karena sekali cinta aku tetap cinta

Dedicate this to someone I love so much..I hope he understands my deep feeling

W for J

Take Me To The Top by Loverboy

2008-09-23T17:09:00.001+08:00

Dedicate this song for the lovers: ^_~

What do you think the chances are
We're gonna' make it together?

Here's callin' your name
'Cause I have to do the things I have to do.

Chorus 1

What's a poor boy to do when he's fallen in love with you?
Help me make it through the night.
Everything's gonna' be alright.

Yeah...

Come to me deep in the night
Look at you, I feel alright
Crazy little things you do
Make me wanna' be with you tonight

Ooh...

Chorus 1

Chorus 2

You take me to the top
You take me to the top
You take me to the top
Yes you take me...
You take me to the
You take me to the
You take me to the top...

(Bridge)

Just give me your hand
Hold it out
Close your eyes
Move up close to me

Just talk to me in the tone of voice
You really don't leave me any choice you see...

Chorus 1

Chorus 2

(Instrumental)

Just let me lay my hands on you
That's the thing I wanna' do
Wanna' spend some time alone
Give me a chance and I'll take ya' home...

Lost in Your Eyes

2008-09-20T04:11:00.000+08:00

I get lost, in your eyes
And I feel my spirits rise
And soar like the wind
Is it love that I am in?
I get weak in a glance
Isn't this what's called romance?
And that's what I know
Cause when I'm lost
I can't let go

(Chorus)
I don't mind
Not knowing what I'm headed for
You can take me to the skies
It's like being lost in heaven
When (and) I'm lost in your eyes

I just felt
Don't know why
Something is there
We can't deny
Ooh, when I first knew
Was when I first looked at you
And if I
Can't find my way
If salvation
Seems miles away
Oh, I'll be found
When I'm lost in your eyes

(Repeat Chorus)

I get weak in a glance
Isn't this what's called romance
Oh, I'll be found
When I am lost
In your eyes.

So Tonight That I Might See

2008-09-11T00:48:00.003+08:00

One of most beautiful lyrics that I've ever listened in my life. From Mazzy Star.

come up crash with the muses fells dust into ash
Come so close that I might see the light inside me, I might see
Let me hold you tight and arms tight and arms you lost your chance
Come so close that I might see the crash of light come down on me
With good luck Ill find the dark, stop me now
Find me to your heart
Let me hold you tight like rain and sunshine on a rainy day
See the lights
Come so close that I might see, see the light come down on me
Searching like the fresh goes by small like wind refuse to die
Free me now so I can see the taste of wind who lock me
Does the wind indeed like me
Does the wind indeed like me
With good luck I find the dark stop me now
Find me to your heart
Let me hold you tight like rain and sunshine on a rainy day
Let me hold you tight and arms tight and arms you lost your chance
Come so close that I might see the crash of light come down on me
The crash of light come down on me
The crash of light come down on me
Let me hold you tight and arms tight and arms you lost your chance
Come so close that I might see the crash of light come down on me
With spin luck Ill find the dark stop me now find me to your heart
The crash of light come down on me
So tonight the crash goes by
Small like wind and refuse to die
The crash of light come down on me
Come so close that I might see, see the light come down on me
I hold you tight like rain
Sunshine on a rainy day
Sunshine on a rainy day

Then Finally..........

2008-09-06T23:51:00.007+08:00

They've been stumbled upon their own action. They were perceived that others would aware but it did not happened. Obviously, They intend to hurt somebody else within their most beautiful deceive but God has know everything. The key of their lies beneath the true comes up by honesty of LIFE. Where could be the greatest would come over to them?

Searching truth in this blessed month do not make you will born like a saint. Too many wise men sinking into fake surface. Their mind not order the truth unless to gather trust from other people. They were praying but their heart AGAINTS it.

And Then Finally when all our actions would be asking to take a responsibilty. Nor your mouth neither your eyes could tell anything but the truth. When your mouth lies then suddenly your heart screaming out and spread how many painful from your mouth did hurt to someone else. Did you know, we're all one in order what universe build for?

Secrecy would be revealed, said and done would be roaring out, and fears come closer like the water falls turn out from its source. The singularity of this month that it would shaking you to be an honesty person at least to yourself. You don't have semblance even with your twins. You'all in one but separated by your action.

Welcome to Ramadhan and I'm thanked to some close friends that aware about it. ^_^

So-So

2008-08-16T23:23:00.002+08:00

Let's go play the beautiful pain, a such certain witty of deliberate extend. I may come joined with several ways for been so patience to those darn people. Which places do you choose, hi The Nitro Man??? Could you replaced your alter ego and we can share a moment for a while? Oh yes, we knew how to punch the lines and doing some acting to being a demagoge, hohoho...*^_^*

Hmmm,it might be sounds cool when we decide to go to surprise mankind with our cutest joke. Kill their heart so bad then putting it on our back, because So-So, we'll be much better than before after all. We've been lied to many people for what we wanted to be consider and united for jealousy of the beauty of heart.

Ugh...So-So...where I've been so far on this earth? Wherever I turned around my face, Only I can see blurry views so lead me to somewhere and Oh,,,So-So...I'll be fine after all. tearing up the trusty and rattle off it. You won't cared that, I'm surely, because you're the Nitro man, who has a heart builded from the dust of hell and wearing skin from the hatred. So-so...I'll be missing you, The Nitro Man..whenever you turn back that you would see my darkest overshadow on you. Beware... there will be No Mercy at all.

Dedicated to all heroes who sacrificed their life for Indonesian Independence Day

The Moment of Truth

2008-07-30T04:57:00.001+08:00

Dear Life,
Wait me for a second
I looked back in years I grew Up
Standing aside close to the future
I really wanted to overview every single moment that I had before

Dear Past
Would you like to catch me through in the moment?
When everything seem pure and honesty
And an adolences just step to move forward

Dear Present
Can you wait me in the sideline of my journey?
I need to get back for a while and gather pieces of my heart
that I forgot to put into the right place

Dear Future
I will go there with you whether is right or wrong steps that I choose
Because the only thing that guide me in the darkness long road is my faith

The Moment of Truth
Makassar, July, '08
By (~~W-Dee~~)

Cirque de Soleil

2008-07-28T23:48:00.006+08:00

Je marche à travers le soleil

Mon soleil d'avance sur l'arc-en-ciel

Extraction de moi à mes propres racines

Quand j'ai vu mon beau sourire personne étranger à moi
Je t'aime

toujours où et quand vous allez

si vous oubliez moi

lorsque vous séjournez au ciel

dédié à: mon père bien-aimé

No Primary Subject

2008-05-31T16:41:00.006+08:00

I've just found this poetry in my collection's and I think I need to share with anyone who really believe in Oneness, The Truth, and also Longing. So, it means, this is the 3rd essays on this month. :D. Fuihhhh, finally.....

PS: I wrote this poem in December 3th, I started wrote essay's in May 3rd, and also this is the 3rd essay on this month. It wasn't on purpose way to design but I believe in number 3 has something important for me.

NOTE: Sorry, I did'nt translated into English because I thought It will loose the originally of the meaning's

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Adakah yang hilang saat sepi membawa kebencian?
seperti angin yang membawa hembusan kesedihan yang terantuk di penghujung
penggalah waktu

aku menanti gemericik embun pagi yang terjatuh di rangkaian dedaunan
saat suara sang penidur membisikkan rangkaian kata
aku merindu pada Adam yang terdampar jauh di seberang senja

Bilakah kerinduan insani ini akan bertaut?

Made in December, 3th, 2004, when Love was'nt easy for me at that time

Auguries of Innocence - William Blake

2008-05-30T12:04:00.004+08:00

I've found this poem in an accidental way. It happened when I was watched "Tomb Raider" DVD and Lara Croft mentioned some part of William Blake's poetry to solve mistery of "All Seeing Eye" and bring her into "Illuminati" group which was her dad belongs to before.

In May, I was started written on my blog at 3th. And I finished this month to put Blake's poetry onto my blog. So, it means, I just have 2 blogs for this month. I hope it is somekind of a sign, a good sign.

PS: In memoriam for my "Beloved Daddy"
~Lost But Never Forgotten~

To see a world in a grain of sand,
And a heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand,
And eternity in an hour.

A robin redbreast in a cage
Puts all heaven in a rage.

A dove-house fill'd with doves and pigeons
Shudders hell thro' all its regions.
A dog starv'd at his master's gate
Predicts the ruin of the state.

A horse misused upon the road
Calls to heaven for human blood.
Each outcry of the hunted hare
A fibre from the brain does tear.

A skylark wounded in the wing,
A cherubim does cease to sing.
The game-cock clipt and arm'd for fight
Does the rising sun affright.

Every wolf's and lion's howl
Raises from hell a human soul.

The wild deer, wand'ring here and there,
Keeps the human soul from care.
The lamb misus'd breeds public strife,
And yet forgives the butcher's knife.

The bat that flits at close of eve
Has left the brain that won't believe.
The owl that calls upon the night
Speaks the unbeliever's fright.

He who shall hurt the little wren
Shall never be belov'd by men.
He who the ox to wrath has mov'd
Shall never be by woman lov'd.

The wanton boy that kills the fly
Shall feel the spider's enmity.
He who torments the chafer's sprite
Weaves a bower in endless night.

The caterpillar on the leaf
Repeats to thee thy mother's grief.
Kill not the moth nor butterfly,
For the last judgement draweth nigh.

He who shall train the horse to war
Shall never pass the polar bar.
The beggar's dog and widow's cat,
Feed them and thou wilt grow fat.

The gnat that sings his summer's song
Poison gets from slander's tongue.
The poison of the snake and newt
Is the sweat of envy's foot.

The poison of the honey bee
Is the artist's jealousy.

The prince's robes and beggar's rags
Are toadstools on the miser's bags.
A truth that's told with bad intent
Beats all the lies you can invent.

It is right it should be so;
Man was made for joy and woe;
And when this we rightly know,
Thro' the world we safely go.

Joy and woe are woven fine,
A clothing for the soul divine.
Under every grief and pine
Runs a joy with silken twine.

The babe is more than swaddling bands;
Every farmer understands.
Every tear from every eye
Becomes a babe in eternity;

This is caught by females bright,
And return'd to its own delight.
The bleat, the bark, bellow, and roar,
Are waves that beat on heaven's shore.

The babe that weeps the rod beneath
Writes revenge in realms of death.
The beggar's rags, fluttering in air,
Does to rags the heavens tear.

The soldier, arm'd with sword and gun,
Palsied strikes the summer's sun.
The poor man's farthing is worth more
Than all the gold on Afric's shore.

One mite wrung from the lab'rer's hands
Shall buy and sell the miser's lands;
Or, if protected from on high,
Does that whole nation sell and buy.

He who mocks the infant's faith
Shall be mock'd in age and death.
He who shall teach the child to doubt
The rotting grave shall ne'er get out.

He who respects the infant's faith
Triumphs over hell and death.
The child's toys and the old man's reasons
Are the fruits of the two seasons.

The questioner, who sits so sly,
Shall never know how to reply.
He who replies to words of doubt
Doth put the light of knowledge out.

The strongest poison ever known
Came from Caesar's laurel crown.
Nought can deform the human race
Like to the armour's iron brace.

When gold and gems adorn the plow,
To peaceful arts shall envy bow.
A riddle, or the cricket's cry,
Is to doubt a fit reply.

The emmet's inch and eagle's mile
Make lame philosophy to smile.
He who doubts from what he sees
Will ne'er believe, do what you please.

If the sun and moon should doubt,
They'd immediately go out.
To be in a passion you good may do,
But no good if a passion is in you.

The whore and gambler, by the state
Licensed, build that nation's fate.
The harlot's cry from street to street
Shall weave old England's winding-sheet.

The winner's shout, the loser's curse,
Dance before dead England's hearse.

Every night and every morn
Some to misery are born,
Every morn and every night
Some are born to sweet delight.

Some are born to sweet delight,
Some are born to endless night.

We are led to believe a lie
When we see not thro' the eye,
Which was born in a night to perish in a night,
When the soul slept in beams of light.

God appears, and God is light,
To those poor souls who dwell in night;
But does a human form display
To those who dwell in realms of day.

The Obligation of You

2008-05-03T22:33:00.001+08:00

No...do not....Interfering your life with a feeble justification circumtances
A whisperer from the darkness reversed so often
I would be so intense to it, remains me as i am only a human being
Please, no leave resentment anymore in any way
Intertwine would be a part of us

I've tried seemed in many ways who you are
I think I could sing a long serenade before night's fall
I won't say the obligation of YOU
I've only say the obligation of US

Ran...ran...ran..., so we could feel true things on this way
Your eyes knocking the door of dawn
I will looking at you in a far far away
And I will delight the moment You playing some kind of Your joy

No matter what seems bad moment comes and go, I will always thinking of You in my truest way as You said in a long long time before I see Your smile and be longing to Our Oneness.

Sounds of My Nature

2008-04-28T11:27:00.002+08:00

Oh My Lord....
Secure me from this fallen of my strengthen. When i wish to reach out Your hand's please touch my heart with a gently since i felt this pain in many times without a cure.

Oh Love.....
You carried away my soul and never give it back in the normal. Should i crying begged on you, oh Love, to share just a little bit of mercy. Why people talked about decent, kindness, loyalty, and genuinely but after then they throw away all those words behind them? Are they that we called hypocrite?

Oh, Mother Earth.....
I kissed your land to show you how i wish you holding me and secure me from this long-long pain. I laid down and feel tired of keeping this and wish that genuinely will come and touching my empty heart. I do my prostration now and truly believe when you forgive you love and when you love God's light shines on you

O...Sancta Simplicitas !

2008-04-17T18:25:00.002+08:00

O...Sancta Simplicitas !
Where is our society goes to? Why the madness take over controll of this world? And why all people became so silently? I lost my concious into profound liquid doleful mind and dreadful heart.

O...Sancta Simplicitas !
We walked on through the shimmering mesmerize of consequences. We light up and drawning piece by piece of the moment of truth. So, why we standing still in here? Will we waiting new enlightment then loose cover in our dignity?

O...Sancta Simplicitas !
I have afraid to be solemnly and being do so. Please, make room for human frailty and patience, for no one can live up to such high expectations.

O...Sancta Simplicitas !
Release the suffering rather than hide behind a facade.O...Sancta Simplicitas !,O...Sancta Simplicitas !, O...Sancta Simplicitas ! I bow to my Dearest Lover, who blowing my primary breathing into my spirit.

O...Sancta Simplicitas !

Fragile and Smile

2008-04-15T17:06:00.002+08:00

Let's we take a breath for a while when fragile heart shadows our life. Never think to pull back from the way we are walking through. Sometimes, each day not always seems nice but at least we still have some air to inhale and exhale.

I always feel new day in each day. Sunshine day, smile of people, fresh of air, nice friends of mine, and good thoughts in everytime i woke up in the morning. Don't keep the promise that you will do surely one thing in tomorrow. Just say, "I hope i can doing better in tomorrow morning." Nothing surely in this life. You should know that.

Hmmmmm....i really like this air. I could see my smile featuring every leaf on the trees. I had found big changes in my mind and I am glad I found this time. Yet despite no one seeing now at least time has choose being in my side, so far.

Wow....where is the fragile goes by? I think, it hides somewhere and scary be back to the people who always fought for strenghten of heart. No so easy for first to be honest, but, since we keep on our mind there is always happiness even in bad times, I am surely we could passing through this moments with ONLY one WORD: SMILE

Sinking Into NOW and THEN

2008-04-11T20:19:00.001+08:00

Crying if you want to pull out of your empty feeling. If you could, choose a dark corner of your room so you can't let people might say about your sadness or looking through in your innocent eyes. Or maybe, you can choose to declared your sadness then your feeling will be good. The choice in your hands.

But, let me tell you about my own thoughts. My suggestion, put behind your worrying about looking silly since we always worry about how to be good look in public. Being goofy, silly, or ugly that moments like these are rare, so bask in your happiness. I was on that moment that i was felt awful if people know i was crying. Or I was seem not proper for being looking good in circle of my friends.

But, time taught me that all my worried is not worthy with the values in my spirit. I saw some girls jumping from their chair when guys gave them compliments for their physical things. They, the guys, did it to me before and then I am realized, the compliment was old school kind for me, NOW and THEN.

So, better than waste time for bare compliment instead, we are ( girls )should have a dignity and kind hearted for searching true heart of men and reach them for genuine attitude and feel it that they are a part of we are. My advise for you, girls, some of them became are good, good, good friends and one of them will wins your heart. But becareful, some or mostly guys just pretending. Beware...!!!!

Big Shocking Wave

2008-04-10T17:31:00.003+08:00

We are rallied over time to reach out what we called a hope. But, for in a long time we have been walking carried out the pain, what we would seems not particular anymore. Nor happiness neither painful, we are still stuck on same situation. We are, human kind, too have delicious desire to being a part of what we called materialism.

We have been contributing silliness and the mob will be plunging into the weird world. Gradually, we look alike a zombie and we run out of the right path. This is some stuff rolling our humanity and always thought we are the great from the others.

Ugh....let us think about our present on this earth. What mission we carry on and then normally lead us to abnormal life. The world getting worst and worst. We had killed our selves and make some dishes for dinner in purpose.

What about self deception? No more rooms for taking a breath even for a while. We are like show room of life and reverse of these kinds of what being live of life. IF we defense our selves in several damage morals, beware for other direction attack. We never sure about anything. Ignite fire can be one choice for last breath out.

The Unforgiven

2008-04-07T14:06:00.003+08:00

Anger, hateness, greedy, are part of this world. No more cares for human being anymore. They' ve only pursuit for their own happiness and forgot the others need their hands to standing up. This song has deeply truly meaning about that and in very-very first time i have seen this video, i was crying because it's described about the hopeless of old man to reach his own goal untill his death. Here it's the lyrics and this song taken from album, ReLoad in 1997.Interesting that the length this song is 6:23, almost twice length from a normal song in common. This is the link from the video, http://youtube.com/watch?v=5cGvzApDZKI.

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New blood joins this earth
And quikly hes subdued
Through constant pain disgrace
The young boy learns their rules

With time the child draws in
This whipping boy done wrong
Deprived of all his thoughts
The young man struggles on and on hes known
A vow unto his own
That never from this day
His will theyll take away

What Ive felt
What Ive known
Never shined through in what Ive shown
Never be
Never see
Wont see what might have been

What Ive felt
What Ive known
Never shined through in what Ive shown
Never free
Never me
So I dub the unforgiven

They dedicate their lives
To running all of his
He tries to please them all
This bitter man he is
Throughout his life the same
Hes battled constantly
This fight he cannot win
A tired man they see no longer cares
The old man then prepares
To die regretfully
That old man here is me

What Ive felt
What Ive known
Never shined through in what Ive shown
Never be
Never see
Wont see what might have been

What Ive felt
What Ive known
Never shined through in what Ive shown
Never free
Never me
So I dub the unforgiven

You labeled me
Ill label you
So I dub the unforgiven

I Ching

2008-04-05T20:51:00.003+08:00

Belated Day
Where is it starting?
A While thirsty occupied desire too fast

Where is the station that place we will going to go?
Did u see the undertaker in the line of a street?

Therewith flowers fell down like the tears that you never see before
The tale's story coming from the state that evil forgot to betrayed it

Please....Come visit my dreams for pointed out my willingness
Do you see me in other someone else? Changing my face? My behaviour or I am not who I am..!!!

What Camillo said in Winter's Tale, "You pay a great deal too dear for what's given freely"
Beseech you for what will taken the rest of happiness that you've got before

The sense of foolness, ere being the winner on you
What would it be? Disobey follower or lover and you will live forever

Yang 'Ku Tunggu

2008-04-05T15:37:00.003+08:00

Lagu dari Anggun ini memberikan sebuah makna tentang penantian akan datangnya cinta sejati. Karena cinta sejati adalah sesuatu yang bersifat sublim dan kedalaman maknanya terkadang tak bisa dipahami oleh sebagian besar orang. Duhai, para pencinta, yakinlah akan cinta sejati dari dirimu karena suatu ketika belahan jiwamu akan datang memanggil meski engkau bersama dengan orang lain. Itulah CINTA..!!!

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Lelah kuberjalan menelusuri hari,
Menunggu sesuatu tuk melupakanmu,
Wajah-wajah telah datang dan telah pergi,
Tetap kusendiri dan merindukanmu...

Ku ingin mengerti,
Bahwa rasa itu bisa berhenti...

Yang aku tunggu,
Masih kucari,
Yang aku tunggu,
Tuk hilangkan rasa sepi
Akan aku tunggu,
Datangnya hari,
Ku kan menunggu,
Saatnya jatuh cinta lagi...

Kulihat wajahmu di bayang embun pagi,
Ku dengar suaramu dihembusan bayu,
Mungkinkah kembali hati yang telah pergi,
Mekarkah kembali bunga yang telah layu...

Kan ku coba mengerti,
Bahwa rasa itu bisa berganti...

Yang aku tunggu,
Masih kucari,
Yang aku tunggu,
Tuk hilangkan rasa sepi
Akan aku tunggu,
Datangnya hari,
Ku kan menunggu,
Saatnya jatuh cinta lagi...

Akan kutunggu,
Masih percaya,
Aku menunggu,
Rasa itu pasti kan tiba..
Tetap kutunggu,
Tak kan berhenti,
Ku kan menunggu...
Saatnya jatuh cinta lagi..

Jangan lepas lagi..jangan sampai hilang,
Nanti akan tiba,nanti pasti datang...

Ku kan menunggu....(dirimu,engkaulah seorang yang aku tunggu 2x )

Memoir of Sweet AngeLs

2008-04-04T19:15:00.001+08:00

Starry oh Blink of The Night. Come join with me and Jumping into the sand of the greatest moment.

Oh... my LoveLy Friends...You Are stay always in my heart. Your eyes is my shining day, YOur Smile is my breathing, Your Careness is My Healing. How can I do without You?

I've seen Paradise between us. You'Re Flawless in My view. Chain me with Your Pure Love. Never Avoided my Reaching in Your Shoulder 'Cuz I can see Your anticipated action in me when I was feel Useless. You' Re an Hero foR on This Earth.

Storm Comes and You'Re standing beside me and Hold me with braveness. How Many People can do That way? However You'Re only Human Being. But For me, You are An Angel for me.

OOO. Starry oh....Blink of The Night. Share the warmness of Friendship all Around the world. With this, Nor Hater Neither Jealousy will come to People. No COmparing And Greedy to Have it that Love for Only one Person. Because Love is never so SelFish and Love is about Given and Achieved The Best things from human kind. They'Re That I Called My Sweet AngelS.

PS: Dedicated this for All my friendS That Always Stay with Me in my Bad Times. For Ron, thank you for keeping Me in the right way when storm comes and keeping Me Smile.

Purest of Heart

2008-04-02T12:33:00.003+08:00

Friends is our treasure no matter what will happen, they always stay with us. No matter we live in other side of the world, friend always stay in our heart, our thoughts. And real friends which is that they can feel what other people cannot feel it, they sweep away our tears with gentle, and do not care if you are good or bad. They still beside you and support what you do. This is poem from my friend, Ron, and i am very delight he wrote proper poem with his genuine heart. He knew well when i was sad and always gave me good response even i was in bad mood.

There are, out there among us,
Those of good nature and grace
That embodies the best of our kind,
And give me hope for the human race

They can make us better people,
These people of character and resolve
By showing us what we can be,
And how we, too, can evolve

For these people are like walking,
Talking balls of pure sunshine
A wink or a smile from one, and
All your troubles can be put behind

That infectious positive attitude
Shines right through your skin
And before you know it,
You feel it coming from within

They are so nice all the time
It’s hard to believe they are for real
But you can know that they are
By the way that they make you feel

They are the purest of heart
Bearing no malice to any
Radiating such positive energy,
And touching the lives of many

Ron Fryer
3/23/08
Inspired by Widi (she is one)

PS: We are friend forever Ron,no one can change it.

Missing The Fire

2008-04-01T17:21:00.002+08:00

Whole things need a fire
It produced spirit of singular signal
Need a beat sometimes for waking up soul

I caught a dictum from the air bringing pieces of my last breath back again
None drawing brought satiesfied on me whether it would be good or bad
'Cause I'm missing the fire that it has been gone away
Smell it from a far
Necessity for breaking out the unruffled

Attempted to be a good soul in this scene, in which we will be pleasent to be on that fragment
Gained hopeful from zero to be hero, neither both of us killing our own willing
The risk of missing The fire is endured burning pain in our selves

Crumbly Heart

2008-03-31T18:25:00.006+08:00

We thought that we can strain away the pain
We thought we can ruin all matters with only sweeping away
We live in a wacky world
And we are failed to standing up for victory

Tears is not enough to clean stain misery from the hole of heart
We are in hurry to prone to consider the better circumtances
We are irritated with an alter ego that lead us to live in hell

Let's crumbly heart hanging on for awhile
Seize the day in touchful mood
We heard slightly string of the guitar's sound

We barely in the shadow of the dark
And We missed our lovers in a secrecy moment
To love and be loved is the greatest happiness

Left the foot steps behind and no desire to looking back
We are in separated moments to achieved those feelings
We were born in intimacy love and make it fear us to let love goes away
There is always a new sun in our life starting our first breath with smile

If You're Not the One

2008-03-31T14:45:00.004+08:00

Wonderful song. We can feel someone that we love so much with this. This song from daniel bedingfield became so popular in Indonesia, 2002 and was one of my fave song at that time, ^_^. Lets join nostalgic feel and rockin' life with sweet memories.

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife (husband for me, actually, heheheheh)

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this **much** is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Farewell To My Weirdo Thoughts

2008-03-28T16:04:00.001+08:00

Hey, ya My Weirdo Thoughts
Time to say Good bye to You
Oh...I am Singing With bliss : Wow..Farewell to My Weirdo Thoughts..!!!
We Never Meet Again, I am Sure

You were Occupied my Mind in Many Years
You rule me Out from The Normal Life
Here Comes The New Sun of My Life
New Breath and New Mindset

I will Join The Fanfare of Signicifant Way
Stillnes Thought of Agitation
You Are an Evil of My EmotioN
All's Well That Ends Well
You Are Poison in My Drained LifE
AGAIN:
Farewell to My Weirdo Thoughts
We NeVeR MeeT agaIN, even In HelL or HeaVen
If You Believe These are Exist
No Commands AnyMore From Ya...!!!!
A Bunch Abundance of Sacrifice Will Lead You Out of Mind

Be True to Your Woman

2008-03-27T19:08:00.006+08:00

There is a friend of mine i met today. He is my old pal from long time. He still crazy like used to be and playful more than i'd ever thought. He stopped by and whisper on me about the true of the relationship. He failed to maintain his relationship. So, with the joke words, he said to my pal, sitting next to me, "Be True to Your Woman,".

I was looking through at him and asked him with my eyes, why he said that weird words. Did he do cheat on his Woman? Or is there something on men that we, women, never know about that. He laughed and with his beautifull eyebrow he winked at me.

"Dear friend, should i tell you that I never cheat on my woman. Never. But, I should say to you because you are woman and you are my friend, that, sometimes, we, men, pretending to be what women wanted. We want, our women, not see our weakness too deep and then make them abandoned us.

"Dear friend, building and find someone is so easy but to keep it on the right track is other problem. We could see many couples seems happy but they are not. They pretending to look happy so the others will think no problem then will come between them.

"You never see my pain because you shouldnt see, dear friend. My head so full with regret but couldnt say to my Woman. She didnt worthy to get the pain from the mistake that i did. I want say the truth but my mouth couldnt opened and i found my self was walking by my self on hollow world. No dying or living.

"Because you are my sister and also my friend, i have something to say: Tell your man to be true to you because when he is doing againts the true, trust me, soon or later, he will be regret to treating you like that. I am here to say that relationship is not easy to hold on. You can choose now, you could listened me or consider i never talk to you about this matter."

The Integrity will a part of human if they are being true to others, as a lovers, a friend, a sister, or even someone choose to be different form of creature. They must to be true or be genuine. That is what human should be.

The end of our conversation, he winked again and shaking my hands. "I know you will understand that soon, dear friend."

Blossom in The Spring

2008-03-10T10:42:00.002+08:00

Revealed the spring season from the start
May blossom flower can whisper through
From it we learned about devotee
And what we called the truly Love

No one can exchange their pain how hard they try for
Even we burden the sun and we sunk the moon
Only we can see that a reflection from the mirror of destiny
Maybe we can accept or we ignore it

Blossom flower show me the Truly Love
Since human being distract from it
We just see most our life that love is for low passion, materialism, or to someone else
Then we left our mind behind to pursue nothing

That flower whatever we called it with rose, jasmine, or orchid
Belong to Divinity
Jiggling for a while
And gone for ever
at that time we learned about the eternity and belonging to

*Bismillah Tawakkaltu 'Ala Allah
(Dengan menyebut nama Allah, Aku berserah diri kepada-Nya)

Solitude Par

2008-03-07T17:18:00.001+08:00

When the spring comes, the ice would be melting and there is new way to moving forward. I will take a place in front of row to seeking the pearl of life. I had through tough times and i feel better then because a warrior never to be a warrior if they cant define their life.

Let me call this place a thousand sunshine. I am sitting here and look up for more ancient story of life. I do never worry what would be life take me away as long as i had learned to grasping it. And you are people, poke fun at me as many as you can wish for because you never know when Karma comes to you.

I got a heritage spirit from my ancestor that we should chin up and hold on tears so that never been being a river and destroy the faith. Believe it, and you'll see it. Know it and you'll be it. The nightmare only comes to person who never TRUST their selves or regret what they have been done.

I have been here for a while and feel a joy and a adversity in same time. You dont have any idea who i am because i am the warrior from the past and come to future to define the world. I bended my knee to my Almighy Lord and wishing The Light will shimmering my face until the dead comes.

Save The Best For Last

2008-02-27T12:11:00.002+08:00

One of my fave songs....

Sometimes the snow comes down in june
Sometimes the sun goes round the moon
I see the passion in your eyes
Sometimes its all a big surprise
cause there was a time when all I did was wish
Youd tell me this was love
Its not the way I hoped or how I planned
But somehow its enough

And now were standing face to face
Isnt this world a crazy place
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last

All of the nights you came to me
When some silly girl had set you free
You wondered how youd make it through
I wondered what was wrong with you

cause how could you give your love to someone else
And share your dreams with me
Sometimes the very thing youre looking for
Is the one thing you cant see

And now were standing face to face
Isnt this world a crazy place
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last

Sometimes the very thing youre looking for
Is the one thing you cant see

Sometimes the snow comes down in june
Sometimes the sun goes round the moon
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last

You went and saved the best for last

Teardrop

2008-02-23T18:26:00.002+08:00

This song describe my feeling by now. Performance by The Radio, and became hit in 1997-1998.

Something in the words you never said
makes me feel I aint seen nothing yet
catch me now I am falling,
Hear the angels calling,
Calling somewhere deep inside my head

Close encounters of a different kind
Open up the part that's hidden inside
Many hearts get broken
While words are left unspoken
leaving nothing but a worried mind

We could flow like teardrops on the ocean
We could flow like water to the sea
It may sound unclever
We'd last forever
If you want to stay with me
If you want to stay with me

Never now for sure what's comming up
Sad the echo-beat will never stop
You are the one and only
But if you leave me lonley
You might as well let all the curtains drops

We could flow like teardrops on the ocean
We could flow like water to the sea
It may sound unclever
We'd last forever
If you want to stay with me
If you want to stay with me

Instrumental solo

We could flow like teardrops on the ocean
We could flow like water to the sea
It may sound unclever
We'd last forever
If you want to stay with me

If you'd just lay love on me

Sejuta Cita di Duka

2008-02-20T17:08:00.004+08:00

Bukanlah sebuah kesedihan yang datang menyayat sukma. Tetapi rasa kebahagiaan yang datang sepenggal kemudian pergi tak berjejak. Adakah satu kata yang bisa terucapkan lagi jika laknat cinta telah menjadi angkara dari sebuah ketidakmengertian?

Aku telah melihat bahaya kesedihan itu datang sejak horizon bumi masih memerah saga oleh mentari. Tapi, saat itu, aku hanya berharap bahwa kesedihan itu hanya berupa fantasi pagi hari dan akan segera lenyap seperti embun tersaput sinar matahari.

Namun, sedih itu sepertinya bilah pisau yang tertancap di setiap irisan jantung dan mengoyak serpihan hati yang telah lama retak. Sudahlah, karena ikatan apapun tak akan mampu merekatkan luka yang sudah lama tertikam oleh sembilu

Jealousy

2008-02-04T12:36:00.000+08:00

OSHO TEACHING:

Jealousy is comparison. And we have been taught to compare, we have been conditioned to compare, always compare. Somebody else has a better house, somebody else has a more beautiful body, somebody else has more money, somebody else has a more charismatic personality. Compare, go on comparing yourself with everybody else you pass by, and great jealousy will be the outcome; it is the by-product of the conditioning for comparison.

Otherwise, if you drop comparing, jealousy disappears. Then you simply know you are you, and you are nobody else, and there is no need. It is good that you don't compare yourself with trees, otherwise you will start feeling very jealous: why are you not green? And why has God been so hard on you -- and no flowers? It is better that you don't compare with birds, with rivers, with mountains; otherwise you will suffer. You only compare with human beings, because you have been conditioned to compare only with human beings; you don't compare with peacocks and with parrots. Otherwise, your jealousy would be more and more: you would be so burdened by jealousy that you would not be able to live at all.

Comparison is a very foolish attitude, because each person is unique and incomparable. Once this understanding settles in you, jealousy disappears. Each is unique and incomparable. You are just yourself: nobody has ever been like you, and nobody will ever be like you. And you need not be like anybody else, either.

God creates only originals; he does not believe in carbon copies.

A bunch of chickens were in the yard when a football flew over the fence and landed in their midst. A rooster waddled over, studied it, then said, "I'm not complaining, girls, but look at the work they are turning out next door."

Next door great things are happening: the grass is greener, the roses are rosier. Everybody seems to be so happy -- except yourself. You are continuously comparing. And the same is the case with the others, they are comparing too. Maybe they think the grass in your lawn is greener -- it always looks greener from the distance -- that you have a more beautiful wife.... You are tired, you cannot believe why you allowed yourself to be trapped by this woman, you don't know how to get rid of her -- and the neighbor may be jealous of you, that you have such a beautiful wife! And you may be jealous of him....

Everybody is jealous of everybody else. And out of jealousy we create such hell, and out of jealousy we become very mean.

An elderly farmer was moodily regarding the ravages of the flood. "Hiram!" yelled a neighbor, "your pigs were all washed down the creek." "How about Thompson's pigs?" asked the farmer. "They're gone too." "And Larsen's?" "Yes." "Humph!" ejaculated the farmer, cheering up. "It ain't as bad as I thought."

If everybody is in misery, it feels good; if everybody is losing, it feels good. If everybody is happy and succeeding, it tastes very bitter.

But why does the idea of the other enter in your head in the first place? Again let me remind you: because you have not allowed your own juices to flow; you have not allowed your own blissfulness to grow, you have not allowed your own being to bloom. Hence you feel empty inside, and you look at each and everybody's outside because only the outside can be seen.

You know your inside, and you know the others' outside: that creates jealousy. They know your outside, and they know their inside: that creates jealousy. Nobody else knows your inside. There you know you are nothing, worthless. And the others on the outside look so smiling. Their smiles may be phony, but how can you know that they are phony? Maybe their hearts are also smiling. You know your smile is phony, because your heart is not smiling at all, it may be crying and weeping.

You know your interiority, and only you know it, nobody else. And you know everybody's exterior, and their exterior people have made beautiful. Exteriors are showpieces and they are very deceptive.

There is an ancient Sufi story:

A man was very much burdened by his suffering. He used to pray every day to God, "Why me? Everybody seems to be so happy, why am only I in such suffering?" One day, out of great desperation, he prayed to God, "You can give me anybody else's suffering and I am ready to accept it. But take mine, I cannot bear it any more."

That night he had a beautiful dream -- beautiful and very revealing. He had a dream that night that God appeared in the sky and he said to everybody, "Bring all your sufferings into the temple." Everybody was tired of his suffering -- in fact everybody has prayed some time or other, "I am ready to accept anybody else's suffering, but take mine away; this is too much, it is unbearable."

So everybody gathered his own sufferings into bags, and they reached the temple, and they were looking very happy; the day has come, their prayer has been heard. And this man also rushed to the temple.

And then God said, "Put your bags by the walls." All the bags were put by the walls, and then God declared: "Now you can choose. Anybody can take any bag."

And the most surprising thing was this: that this man who had been praying always, rushed towards his bag before anybody else could choose it! But he was in for a surprise, because everybody rushed to his own bag, and everybody was happy to choose it again. What was the matter? For the first time, everybody had seen others' miseries, others' sufferings -- their bags were as big, or even bigger!

And the second problem was, one had become accustomed to one's own sufferings. Now to choose somebody else's -- who knows what kind of sufferings will be inside the bag? Why bother? At least you are familiar with your own sufferings, and you have become accustomed to them, and they are tolerable. For so many years you have tolerated them -- why choose the unknown?

And everybody went home happy. Nothing had changed, they were bringing the same suffering back, but everybody was happy and smiling and joyous that he could get his own bag back.

In the morning he prayed to God and he said, "Thank you for the dream; I will never ask again. Whatsoever you have given me is good for me, must be good for me; that's why you have given it to me."

Because of jealousy you are in constant suffering; you become mean to others. And because of jealousy you start becoming phony, because you start pretending. You start pretending things that you don't have, you start pretending things which you can't have, which are not natural to you. You become more and more artificial. Imitating others, competing with others, what else can you do? If somebody has something and you don't have it, and you don't have a natural possibility of having it, the only way is to have some cheap substitute for it.

I hear that Jim and Nancy Smith had a great time in Europe this summer. It's so great when a couple finally gets a chance to really live it up. They went everywhere and did everything. Paris, Rome... you name it, they saw it and they did it. But it was so embarrassing coming back home and going through customs. You know how custom officers pry into all your personal belongings. They opened up a bag and took out three wigs, silk underwear, perfume, hair coloring...really embarrassing. And that was just Jim's bag!

Just look inside your bag and you will find so many artificial, phony, pseudo things -- for what? Why can't you be natural and spontaneous? -- because of jealousy.

The jealous man lives in hell. Drop comparing and jealousy disappears, meanness disappears, phoniness disappears. But you can drop it only if you start growing your inner treasures; there is no other way.

Grow up, become a more and more authentic individual. Love yourself and respect yourself the way God has made you, and then immediately the doors of heaven open for you. They were always open, you had simply not looked at them.

The Book of Wisdom, Chapter 27

Serenade Kesedihan

2008-01-08T18:36:00.000+08:00

Ada cukup banyak jalan berbatu yang harus dilewati untuk tiba di ujung bukit sana. Meski pagi masih terlihat dan matahari pun bersinar cukup terang, aku pun meragu, akankah aku akan tiba di ujung bukit itu?

Di bawah lautan tatapan mata kosong para pengusung keranda aku berusaha memahami setiap detik dari perubahan itu. Air laut membiru, camar melintas menuju ke tepian dan suara-suara pegunungan memanggilku dari jauh dan memberikan isyarat.

Sayangnya, aku tetap di sini serta menatap kosong ke arah harapan yang aku dambakan itu. Mestinya aku tidak membuka hati untuk harapan itu karena aku telah tahu ada banyak kesakitan yang akan datang padaku kelak. Tetapi, aku membiarkan harapan itu datang, memelukku, dan membisikkan kata-kata buluh perindu.

Sepiku hanyalah sebuah serenade yang tak kunjung berakhir. Cinta adalah sebuah kesakitan tanpa akhir yang selalu datang berkunjung tak kenal waktu. Wahai dikau harapan, tidak kau pahami mengapa cinta akhirnya selalu meninggalkanmu? Engkau tidak hanya menyakiti cinta itu saja namun kau menaburinya dengan dendam serta kebencian yang tak terperikan.

Aku tidak memulai dan tidak mengakhir hariku dengan segenggam senja. Mataku tetap melihat ke arah keranda jenazah yang dibawa para pengusungnya di taman keabadian dan berharap aku tidak lagi menggantungkan harapku terhadap sesuatu yang indah sekaligus sangat menyakitkan ini. (*)

Beautiful Stranger

2008-01-02T23:46:00.000+08:00

Came at late of the night, someone called him self with beautiful stranger. He was ride strong horse as fast as wind, blowing from south where is life started from the breath. He was hero from folk's story and be born to destroy evil.

Came at late of the nigh aware stand of beloved ones. He really perfect stranger to those people. Where he goes that took out my happiness? He whispered to wind that sent me chill melody . He absolutely the shadow, the thunder, the magic, and whatever people called for braveness. Everyone whom he spoke were amazed. Who really is he? He came over and over, close to me, and create my little world by Amadeuz painting.

I had drown into his hazel eyes so could make me fall asleep for a while when sadness was trying to reach me away. Who is he? He created from Light, wearing silk from Heaven, and his heart made from Love. Thousand times he came to me late at night, kissing me so gently, hold me with warm, untill morning flew away him from me. Who is he? Can i meet him in real and look so close to his wonderful bright eyes?

The Highwayman by Alfred Noyes (1880-1958)

2007-12-30T16:13:00.000+08:00

PART ONE

I

THE wind was a torrent of darkness among the gusty trees,
The moon was a ghostly galleon tossed upon cloudy seas,
The road was a ribbon of moonlight over the purple moor,
And the highwayman came riding—
Riding—riding—
The highwayman came riding, up to the old inn-door.

II

He'd a French cocked-hat on his forehead, a bunch of lace at his chin,
A coat of the claret velvet, and breeches of brown doe-skin;
They fitted with never a wrinkle: his boots were up to the thigh!
And he rode with a jewelled twinkle,
His pistol butts a-twinkle,
His rapier hilt a-twinkle, under the jewelled sky.

III

Over the cobbles he clattered and clashed in the dark inn-yard,
And he tapped with his whip on the shuters, but all was locked and barred;
He whistled a tune to the window, and who should be waiting there
But the landlord's black-eyed daughter,
Bess, the landlord's daughter,
Plaiting a dark red love-knot into her long black hair.

IV

And dark in the dark old inn-yard a stable-wicket creaked
Where Tim the ostler listened; his face was white and peaked;
His eyes were hollows of madness, his hair like mouldy hay,
But he loved the landlord's daughter,
The landlord's red-lipped daughter,
Dumb as a dog he listened, and he heard the robber say—

V

"One kiss, my bonny sweetheart, I'm after a prize to-night,
But I shall be back with the yellow gold before the morning light;
Yet, if they press me sharply, and harry me through the day,
Then look for me by moonlight,
Watch for me by moonlight,
I'll come to thee by moonlight, though hell should bar the way."

VI

He rose upright in the stirrups; he scarce could reach her hand,
But she loosened her hair i' the casement! His face burnt like a brand
As the black cascade of perfume came tumbling over his breast;
And he kissed its waves in the moonlight,
(Oh, sweet, black waves in the moonlight!)
Then he tugged at his rein in the moonliglt, and galloped away to the West.

PART TWO

I

He did not come in the dawning; he did not come at noon;
And out o' the tawny sunset, before the rise o' the moon,
When the road was a gypsy's ribbon, looping the purple moor,
A red-coat troop came marching—
Marching—marching—
King George's men came matching, up to the old inn-door.

II

They said no word to the landlord, they drank his ale instead,
But they gagged his daughter and bound her to the foot of her narrow bed;
Two of them knelt at her casement, with muskets at their side!
There was death at every window;
And hell at one dark window;
For Bess could see, through her casement, the road that he would ride.

III

They had tied her up to attention, with many a sniggering jest;
They had bound a musket beside her, with the barrel beneath her breast!
"Now, keep good watch!" and they kissed her.
She heard the dead man say—
Look for me by moonlight;
Watch for me by moonlight;
I'll come to thee by moonlight, though hell should bar the way!

IV

She twisted her hands behind her; but all the knots held good!
She writhed her hands till her fingers were wet with sweat or blood!
They stretched and strained in the darkness, and the hours crawled by like years,
Till, now, on the stroke of midnight,
Cold, on the stroke of midnight,
The tip of one finger touched it! The trigger at least was hers!

V

The tip of one finger touched it; she strove no more for the rest!
Up, she stood up to attention, with the barrel beneath her breast,
She would not risk their hearing; she would not strive again;
For the road lay bare in the moonlight;
Blank and bare in the moonlight;
And the blood of her veins in the moonlight throbbed to her love's refrain .

VI

Tlot-tlot; tlot-tlot! Had they heard it? The horse-hoofs ringing clear;
Tlot-tlot, tlot-tlot, in the distance? Were they deaf that they did not hear?
Down the ribbon of moonlight, over the brow of the hill,
The highwayman came riding,
Riding, riding!
The red-coats looked to their priming! She stood up, straight and still!

VII

Tlot-tlot, in the frosty silence! Tlot-tlot, in the echoing night!
Nearer he came and nearer! Her face was like a light!
Her eyes grew wide for a moment; she drew one last deep breath,
Then her finger moved in the moonlight,
Her musket shattered the moonlight,
Shattered her breast in the moonlight and warned him—with her death.

VIII

He turned; he spurred to the West; he did not know who stood
Bowed, with her head o'er the musket, drenched with her own red blood!
Not till the dawn he heard it, his face grew grey to hear
How Bess, the landlord's daughter,
The landlord's black-eyed daughter,
Had watched for her love in the moonlight, and died in the darkness there.

IX

Back, he spurred like a madman, shrieking a curse to the sky,
With the white road smoking behind him and his rapier brandished high!
Blood-red were his spurs i' the golden noon; wine-red was his velvet coat,
When they shot him down on the highway,
Down like a dog on the highway,
And he lay in his blood on the highway, with the bunch of lace at his throat.

* * * * * *

X

And still of a winter's night, they say, when the wind is in the trees,
When the moon is a ghostly galleon tossed upon cloudy seas,
When the road is a ribbon of moonlight over the purple moor,
A highwayman comes riding—
Riding—riding—
A highwayman comes riding, up to the old inn-door.

XI

Over the cobbles he clatters and clangs in the dark inn-yard;
He taps with his whip on the shutters, but all is locked and barred;
He whistles a tune to the window, and who should be waiting there
But the landlord's black-eyed daughter,
Bess, the landlord's daughter,
Plaiting a dark red love-knot into her long black hair.

Distance of Sorrow

2007-12-23T23:55:00.000+08:00

My Lord, i drowning now in nowhere, there many sadness through over me. Where is rope will put out me from misery. I was silent in my sorrow there was words unspoken. I sat and put my head lie down and lift up my hands and begged on you, My Lord.

If it is way to be close with You, My Lord, i will follow that sorrow and i will not ask cure of it. I only lonely girl with subtle wish for my own willing. Sometimes, i need favour from You, My Lord, removed my painfull and bring me into peace on earth, where neither pain nor hurt content on me.

But, Beloved of Mine, i will not mind if sorrow is your desire. I through walk with this pain to reach You, My Lord. I was attempt to avoid these things and now I saw it was test for me how deep my Love for You. My Lord, I digg in so far in my life and i this time, only one i need is You.

In my emptiness, I need You, My Lord, The One in my existance and the only one to Alive inside me.

Book of Mine

2007-12-18T14:52:00.000+08:00

Raining still going down today. I felt cold and wishing someone i love come to me and share warmness. But i try to look down into my self and realised there so many things not happen in sudden time. I used to be alone with my self, my mind, and wishing someday it will not happen again. Then, if my destiny would be like used to be, i will make my prostation to Allah and i am belong to Him.

Grass wet, wind flow, then sky become dark. From window made from wood and glasses, i can see raining down so heavy. People with their activities passsing through and seems didnt care each other.

Eyeeing people with their own bussiness when i felt alone and fond in same time it was so amazed me. I saw happiness, sadness, and also angry in their faces and wondering what happened in their hearts. Or are they still have hearts for their own lives? No know knows but God.

I sat down and found my self thinking about angel came to me With bright eyes, she reached my shoulder and brought me into sky and saw wonderfull pictures of nature. She has familiar face to me, and wonder where i saw that face. Long hair and blue eyes, she remains me to someone from my old-old-old times. When i was dying and she helped me from the dark hole.

We have book in each from our stories. Whatever it happens, it would be wrote on it. Wherever we go, our books still open and already. And my book tell me many things from my own heart about those things and i've been blessed with wonderfull people who inspired me journey on earth so far.

Letter From Him

2007-11-30T14:06:00.000+08:00

Did you ever being wise for several reasons? sometimes we did it cuz we think its way to understand people and make them take us in easy. Even we never so sure, are we really accepted all those things for kindness or "just take" without meaning.

I grew up faster than my friends in my ages, in past time. I used to see several uncommon in my ages. I saw sadness, i should grew up to accept all those things for make sure, i was okay and not angry.

Since i met someone, i do really love him, i became more mature than before. Sometimes, i think he is my soulmate when i could make him smile and love me with his heart. But, when i hurted him, i was thinking maybe i am just dark hole for his life and not really need to be with him. Even so, i was hurted my self if i was think about that, cuz i dont want him leave me behind. Am i so greedy and selfish for my self? No one could hear me, when i was crying and mention his name in my lips and wish he came and make me calm and warm.

I need him like i need air for breath. I need him like i need warm to save me from cold. I need him cuz i do really wish him beside me and to be someone to lying down my head to his shoulder. His letter made me more realised about him.

The Reaper

2007-11-25T01:31:00.000+08:00

Who will know what happened the next? We will never expected when raining comes, people throwing out bad jokes, or maybe the reaper come to us. In my people, dream has meaning and also in Qur'an (cuz i am Muslim so i trust on it), say many times about Josep dreams.

Yesterday, i was dream some kind weird thing. It was about someone from my past came to me and said something. I didnt know exactly what he did say to me, but maybe something about being hurted on that time.

I tried to get away from him but suddenly, rain fell down and i was standing alone on empty street. no one over there. As far as i see, only loang road with trees in row move cause wind. I am not afraid to death cuz it will come to us no matter what wetry will deal with. I just wondering, how come strange dream took that way and reach my unconcious to tell me something.

I'd been dying before, so i knew how to feeling it. But The Reaper, will have any form to come to infront of us. I wish, the reaper not man from my past

Harmony of Life

2007-11-23T13:36:00.000+08:00

Days morning comes and touch my face with gently. Brightening lights coming over from my window. I felt calm, rejuvenated, and full of spirits. These days pretty enough to teach me alots about life.

There is warm from lights, cold from the air. No ambiguity for those. We cant feeling cold from fire, feeling love from hate, and feeling happiness from being hurt in same time. Otherwise, no one make those thing in parallel. This is we called life of harmony.

But, there must be reason why should we know that. Feeling cold to know there is thing to fight fire. Feeling love to know there is hate if we did mistake, and feeling happiness to know there is no one would like to be hurt.

I was back from my old days when my mind full of freedom thingking and my young age still had joyness only and full of sweet dreams. But the most thing I know, even I could turn back to these days and enjoyed best time, we couldn’t changed anything. All dreams at that days only few things we learnt how to reach own goals by now.

Best thing I like to remember is dream always be dreams. Its pursued us to do better. For bitter and sweet memorized, dreams take us to the places where we never can imagined before.

Other Half of Me

2007-11-04T19:36:00.000+08:00

Jika seseorang mencintaimu dengan segenap jiwa raganya, memberikan semangat dan pengaruh yang dalam terhadap kepribadian kamu, maka tak ada pemandangan indah lain di dunia ini selain dirinya. Senyumnya akan menjadi matahari bagi kegelapan, tawanya menidurkan kelelahan jiwa, serta suaranya memberi roh dalam setiap helaan nafas.

Mencintai adalah memberikan sebuah kehidupan dalam kehidupan lain. Lihatlah kegersangan pohon yang tersirami oleh kesejukan air di musim kering. Pernahkah, sekelumit cinta sejati menidurkan malam-malam? Tidak. Cinta membangunkan setiap dengusan nafas dari sang pencinta.

Aku sangat mencintai seseorang saat ini. Seseorang yang tak pernah bisa kumengerti bagaimana ia datang dan membawa kehidupan baru dalam setiap senyum yang terkembang dari bibirku. Senyum yang dulunya hanya terlihat dari pasangan pencinta sejati dan terbaca dari karya sastra sang pujangga yang dimabuk cinta.

Malamku sunyi tanpa mendengar suaranya. Setiap untain kata yang keluar dari bibirnya seperti obat yang menghilangkan setiap sakit yang kuderita. Ia bukan dewa, raja, sang penguasa, ataupun sang pemilik kekayaan alam mayapada ini. Dia hanya seorang yang sederhana dan mencintai aku dengan caranya sendiri. Seseorang yang mengetahui setiap detak jantungku dan membaca seluruh isi pikiranku.

Dengannya, dunia kesedihan hanya khayalan. Kesedihan datang ketika aku tak bisa menyentuhnya, membelai wajahnya, dan merengkuhnya dalam kehangatan. Dia adalah jiwa kesederhanaanku yang mengajarkan banyak hidup dan kerasnya tantangan di masa akan datang. Dia datang tidak sebagai guru, tuan, pemilik atas diriku. Dia adalah the other half of me. My soulmate.Dia mutiara yang ada dalam hatiku yang selalu akan ada di sana dan memberikan kemewahan cinta kepadaku.

Tears in My Heart

2007-10-25T17:59:00.000+08:00

Well, pretty hard to say, this, but i think i hurted my lovely soulmate. I couldnt understand why there is something inside my self drive me through argued something. I tried to halted anything before all going worse. I couldnt handled my self. I was so mean.

I will trying to do the best as wish as i could. That i caught my self into so selfish. In other side, so difficult to tell him i am not sweet girl so he barried talking anything with me. But i dont want seems i like all those things cuz i want to be perfect in his eyes. God, its not my own way.

Sometimes, i think, maybe i am not his dream girl. But keep thinking about this make me hurt and feelin' to die. Just imagined him be with other girl shaking my feeling and choosing let it go. But, can i be so selfish if he will not happy with me? cannot share anything with me? how bad i am.

I could feel he was very dissapointed cuz i didnt understand about his worried. I argued with my stubborn and not let him feel in peace. I know that already, i am just give bad influenced to him. As i said before to him, i just brought bad things for people, But he didnt understand what i said.

I know, i am just burden to him. A while he thinking about us, i am just thinking about my self. I was crying to remembered that, and sometimes thought crossed on my mind, why he met me, someone, with bad influenced?

I have nothing to say more. I am so guilty to make him feel sad but i am too obstinated to let him know i had bad feeling because i hurted him. Oh, God, i wish i never met him. I loved him so much and always forever but maybe he deserved good girl and someone who really understood him in good way. Not like me.

PS: People says, Nothing Last Forever But My Heart and My Love Always Forever for Him.

If I am His Woman

2007-10-01T19:18:00.000+08:00

I have seen many things in this life. But i never seen miserable so bad in his eyes. I felt he need to touched me and said something hidden in his heart. But trust is most things he hates now. For 1st, i wondering why he thinks no real relationship and until now i am still trying why he afraid of it. I think every body wont to be hurts.

I am new one in real relationship. I never felt great relationship in many years. When he offered me that, i am not trusted him for first. Why he choose me and what on earth God choose me to met him in random? Now, he had question to me about that.

I know he never believe in marriage things and me neither. Maybe oneday we could make something about that. All i know, i love him and as i know, he love me too. I picture these things in my mind, when he hold me so tight and spent time together in real time. I wont asked more for him. If he loved me just like friend, i will be glad. If he loved me like sister, i am happy have brother like him, and if he loved me like men to women, i am happiest women in the world. I wont pursued him for do anything where he felt untrusthy. I want him feeling my love and share with him. Sometimes, i afraid to lose him. But life is about losing too and we both know, no immortality for our existency.

Maybe i am so silly in this way. But, i know, it is very rare happened on me and i will be enjoyed my life with him no matter what it takes. If God have other plans for him and me, i will be glad because he could feel real love after being abused in many years. I want to show to him, not every women will hurt him and i will stand beside him when storm come and trying to destroy all we have now. For Allah, thank you for precious moment You gave to me. Amin

For KD: I love you always......

Only Hope

2007-09-29T10:03:00.000+08:00

This song makes me feel closer with someone i love......

There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold.
But you sing to me over and over and over again.

So, I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now, you're my only hope.

I give you my destiny.
I'm giving you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs, I'm giving it back.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

performed by Mandy Moore (from a Walk to Remember movie)

You're one in a million, Kevin

2007-09-22T18:08:00.000+08:00

You're one in a million, Oh now
You're one in a million, Oh

Sometimes I can't hate you every day
Sometimes you can fall for everyone you see
Only one can really make me stay
A sign from the sky
Said to me

You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us

I've been looking for that special one
And I've been searching for someone to give my love
And when I thought that all the hope was gone
You smile, there you were and I was gone

I always will remember how I felt that day
A feeling indescribable to me, Yeah
I always knew there was an answer for my prayer
And you, you're the one for me

You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
I was cool and everything was possible
You tried to catch me but it wasn't possible
Nobody could hurt me it was my game
Until I met you baby and went insane
And when you didn't want me, I wanted you
Because the finer thing bout it was I like to go
I like it when its difficult I like it when it's hard
You know it's worth it if ya find your heart

You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million, Oh
You're one in a million

Preeminent of Existency

2007-09-04T17:16:00.000+08:00

I would never consider being evil for anyone. Then, if they said so, might be i had reason why should i do that. Let's we see in different point of views. I thought we made some decision for all those. When it finished so before long, it is not my blooper or bad intention from me.

All i know,i just always trying being nice for anyone. God knows my heart would never hurt anybody. I was taught to be friendfull for other in case i hope they would give me payback in good things too. I knew few people thought they did it to me with pleasant and hope i would be delighted. I am appreciated it even maybe it would make my life become ruined.

Then when friendship is over now in means God choose the best way to showed how people sometimes never tried believe hurt it doesnt means sad and happines it doesnt mean cheers, always. Then, i choose the best way of my life for someone i loved with light's of God at there. Might be it risky, some friends says, but there is no chance without risk and also in Chinese proverb, risk it means chance.

Wishing the best for everyone that thought i might be hurted them. There was something we never know. Look at that picture and then we will find preeminent of existency human being on it.

Mistikus Cinta

2007-09-02T14:59:00.000+08:00

Ketika pertama kali
Jiwamu ingin selalu dekat
Dengan jiwaku yang belum bisa
Menterjemahkan segala
Arti pertemuan ini
Arti cumbu rayu ini
Yang mungkin bisa memusnahkan
Kenyataan hidup yang terjadi

Ketika jiwamu
Merasuk ke dalam
Aliran darahku dan meracuniku
Ketika jiwamu, memeluk hatiku
Dan biarkan jiwaku cumbui jiwamu

Ketika kamu, aku
Melebur menjadi satu
Dan hanya waktu yang mungkin bisa
Memahami apa yang terjadi

Apa yang sedang kurasa
Apa yang sedang kau rasa
Adalah cinta yang tak bisa
Dijelaskan dengan kata-kata

Untrusted Feeling

2007-08-22T12:02:00.000+08:00

There are many ways to know how about people intention to me. I can be good friends, liar, teacher, sister, or maybe devil’s. In several occasion, I said, maybe I use worst ways to get know about it, but this is me. It builded by my journalist insting and maybe not much people would agreed with it and I unstated with them without complained,.

Even they called me devil’s or some worst words I am still okay because u knew them well they always misunderstood me. But, if I had intention to someone with depth, I think he knew it where is my heart go. Do not make complained to me because he knew me already. It called true lover. But, maybe I did mistake about how deep he knew me. So, it is what it is. I still damn right, how people always misunderstood my way. So it is way to showed me nobody knows me. Good thing.

If untrusted come between, how come feeling could bond stronger because untrusted become poison and destroyed true feeling.So, let time bring us to showed who will be right on this feeling. I still believe, Allah still love me on my own way.

Song of the Suling

2007-08-12T10:34:00.000+08:00

Aug10 2007 for: Widiya Buana. By: Khalil Ali

The song of the suling,

Cries…

Crooning the story of my longing,

To be again, with you…

Yet, instead of the sadness,

With it’s desire to kill me;

I place you in my Hati,

As an Idol!

I long for you with,

Happiness…

And I busy my life with good works;

Preparing for the day of our, re-Union.

As it is for you, so it is with God.

My longing for you and my Love,

are but a reflection of the yearning I hold,

To be again, with our Allah! Amin.

Stone on Someone

2007-08-10T17:32:00.000+08:00

i had nice thing to say. this all about small stone i found when walked around for got some freshy air. Not much know about stone including me. I am just simple girl and went out for something new. I never thought i would find curious stone on my way. None of Us will be know what will be found on road. We just know there should be something new out there prepared for us.

Then i brought this stone to my home, touched it, wondering, why such stone like this i found near my foosteps. This stone very unique seems there are sparkling light out into it. I guise at, rowling my eyes, and make sure there was nothing special on it. But why my heart so close with it?

Stone sometimes refer to rock. It made by some particles, minerals, and maybe the texture of the constituent particles and by the processes that formed them. I love to say stone, because it sounds very strengthen and powerfull. Stone refer to standing on principle or might be solid heart.

I knew already then why God had intention i found stone because stone sometimes being shaped into people. I knew it that stone build on into someone i have knowledge about him and i cannot denied he is stone in many things. Like in his heart,thought,principle, and even in love.

Two of Us

2007-08-08T11:40:00.000+08:00

Look at me more please and i will telling you there was so much things you should know. When flowers bloosom at May and spread the scent then mantled me with it i am really naturally woman in every single day u ever seen before. Needs comfy, related, and sometimes need to be pampered.

I dont need more belongings for. Seems not important to said but it wasnt word i said for executed. When i felt alone i could seeking you for secure me. Maybe, in that day, i could say not have own emotional with you. Like When moon covered by cloud. But, there was reason, why i shall hiding more for makes my feel unbreakable.

Today, asking me about some tough question maybe couldnt heal your sad about me and my own feeling. But, remember, times would recorded our wishing, send to sky, and go back to earth in different way. Well, i could be anywhere and belong's to you ever. Just two of Us. Wherever your soul are been formed into star, stone, land,flowers, and might be formed being my heart. No one knows....

Little While on My dreAm

2007-08-06T14:14:00.000+08:00

Some called me i am a dreamer. Whatever i did they always said so. Might be i am forlorn and could been locked my self in the solitary room. There so many reasons why i was seemed like forlorn just as i do never curiously about how i am being on it. Okay, i love to be dreamer because dreamer could reach top of the world, digged depth of sea and even grasped universe on my hands. That's me.

With my dreams, i knew how fond someone with my own maybe some awkward attitude where is people do not understand it at all. But, this is differently story. I met someone on my way with stranged then looking into my eyes. He smiled at me and he didnt say anything. I felt, i ever seen him at somewhere but i doubted, was i met him on my real life or he comes into my dream before that time.

I was thinking harder to find who is he? Then times walked on and passed me through and he is gone in my view. I thought he would be come back and said something about him self, but he did'nt so i was trying find him on my own way.

Gradually, i begun knew him and he was blind man on my was dream. He was wise man, taught me how to look anyone not with my own eyes on but within heart. "Eyes can be lying by appearances but heart cannot be. Trust your heart and happines would be yours," he said me while holding my hands with gently. I didnt know him but he showed up infront of me when my heart trying to fight what's real i wanted in my life. He comes and go like smoke and he still on my wandered about who is he in existance of universe. "Better blind with our eyes than our hearts"

My_Déjà _Vu

2007-07-26T19:08:00.000+08:00

I have something new about life. I have been there in so many times but very awkward why i felt this time. The space when i belong to but never been felt before. it just like you are realized you had nice eyes by now even though you had it for many years along.

I do believe what people called deja-vu and i felt this morning.When i sat in next window over me, i felt it was happening me in previews years. I caught small bird with my eyes then flied into sky and left some smooth step in corner my heart. I have learnt why brain did it and some science called Deja-vu.

The term déjà vu describes the experience of feeling that one has witnessed or experienced a new situation previously. The term was coined by a French psychic researcher, Émile Boirac (1851–1917) in his book L'Avenir des sciences psychiques (The Future of Psychic Sciences), which expanded upon an essay he wrote while an undergraduate French concentrator at the University of Chicago.

It doesnt means because i have French friends and there were something called French Connection. I have little bit indulgent my self for passioned and found not most of it's was okay for me. Well, for good reason i still sync

Je T'aime... Moi Non Plus

2007-03-29T19:33:00.000+08:00

- Je t’aime je t’aime
Oh oui je t’aime
- Moi non plus
- Oh mon amour
- Comme la vague irrésolue
Je vais, je vais et je viens
Entre tes reins
Je vais et je viens
Entre tes reins
Et je me retiens

- Je t’aime je t’aime
Oh oui je t’aime
- Moi non plus
- Oh mon amour
Tu es la vague, moi l’île nue
Tu vas, tu vas et tu viens
Entre mes reins
Tu vas et tu viens
Entre mes reins
Et je te rejoins

- Je t’aime je t’aime
Oh oui je t’aime
- Moi non plus
- Oh mon amour
- L’amour physique est sans issue
Je vais je vais et je viens
Entre tes reins
Je vais et je viens
Je me retiens
- Non ! maintenant viens...

Word Dont Come to Easy

2007-03-05T19:28:00.000+08:00

Words by F.R. David

Words, dont come easy to me
How can i find a way
To make you see I love you?
Words dont come easy.
Words, dont come easy to me
This is the only way
For me to say I love you
Words dont come easy

Well i'm just a music man
Melody's so far my best friend
But my words are coming out wrong
and I - I reveal my heart to you and
hope that you believe it's true 'cause

Words, don't come easy to me
How can i find a way,To make you see i love you? words don't come easy.
This is just a simple song,That i've made for you on my own.
There's no hidden meaning you know,when I - when i say I love you honey,
Please believe i really do 'cause

Words, dont come easy to me
how can i find a way
to make you see I love you?
words dont come easy It isn't easy
Words dont come easy

Words, dont come easy to me
how can i find a way
to make you see I love you?
words dont come easy

Words, dont come easy to me
This is the only way
For me to say I love you
Words dont come easy

Touch My Heart

2007-01-19T22:20:00.000+08:00

Touch My heart

Touch my heart and I'll touch yours
With a gentle word or two,
For kindness bears the sweetest fruit
That makes our dreams come true.
Touch my life with tenderness
And fill my cup with love.
Share my dreams as I share yours
Beyond the stars above.
Take my hand as I grow old
And lead me when I'm blind.
Show me that you really care…
Good Friends are hard to find.
Touch my heart and I'll touch yours
A little more each day
And then we both find happiness
Somewhere along the way.

PS: FOr J, thank you for sweestest things you done for me

Lady in The Black

2007-01-12T20:53:00.000+08:00

LADY IN BLACK. A RARE QUALITY THIS LASS HAS, POISE, SOPHISTICATION AND ALL THAT JAZZ.
A QUEEN INDEED THIS FRIEND OF MINE, SHE SURE IS LOOKING MIGHTY FINE.
LADY IN BLACK--SIMPLY DIVINE.

JUST LOOK AT THE ANGEL IN THE FUSCHIA DRESS.
ISN'T SHE A SIGHT TO SEE;THIS DEAR WIDI KEEPS ME COMPANY.
WHEN AT NIGHT SHE WORKS SO HARD,
SHE BECOMES MY DARLING BARD.
WRITING IS HER FAVORITE JOY,
GEE AM I A LUCKY BOY.
KISSES, JOHNNY

Been Here Before by Jeremy Enigk

2007-01-11T22:53:00.000+08:00

Been here before Though there's something in the air this time Now I wanna give away what I've taken back Run away with you toward the night

A thousand names. Though there's something in me cannot smile, don't wanna spend the day retracing steps. Run away with you toward the light.

I can't stay long in the morning. Another one went wrong it's ok now that you're gone. Only in your eyes a sudden need I sympathize.

A diamond daze A thousand strands of sunlight in her eyes. Now I wanna give away what I've taken back. Step away with you toward the night.

I can't stay long in the morning. Another one went wrong it's ok now that you're gone. Only in your eyes a sudden need I sympathize.

It's ok now that you're gone. Only in your eyes a sudden need denied I empathize. it's ok now that you're gone Hurry up and sleep, to the night you go

Me Over the Hollow Man

2007-01-10T14:17:00.000+08:00

I never felt this things before. Like seems hollow man catched after me. I had looked for man with stranger character. Nobody could helped me from him. Firstable, he stunned me well with his good looking face.

But, it was so annoyed. I had became so haunted by him. I expected not to see him anymore. if i had seen his face it was seems like i turning on black tunnel, spinning me around. His tone sound tight me in crawling devil then i couldnt so far from him and soon. He ruined my soul without my permission. I did nt like him but my heart looks like underspelled by him.

He was looks like an angel for first but after that he became beast. He always insisted anything and very unfaithfully. How come he is been in this situation? Hopely all memorized gone about him then flushed away. I even dont want to look in his face.

I thought he must lighting up his day with something new. He said dont want anyone but me. I am sure, God put devils in his heart. A Man without sense of good thinking.He was werewolf where his heart has blackhole and no feel pain.

Puisi Kesedihan

2007-01-08T18:19:00.000+08:00

Aku melihat cahaya rembulan
Menyusup di sela kemilau rambutmu
Yang tertiup di angin malam

Senjaku datang dan kuberharap helaian rambutmu ada di elusan tanganku
Angin tersesat di penantian malam
Melintasi jejak siang yang tertinggal
Kuingin meraihmu sejenak dalam bayangan kabutku

Aku tahu hidupku tidak akan panjang
Untuk bisa menikmati patahan senyum kesedihanmu
Tentang cinta sejati yang telah terkubur bersama prahara masa lalumu

Lovely Day

2007-01-04T20:45:00.000+08:00

Willing sometimes describe me powerness where i felt make me so indigenous. But when i met you, my willingness raising my softly sides. I got you in somewhere places warmed my armed and sees me in dark hole.

I have shame when i have heard judged me i am in believe about eternal love. But, i felt, you are nice told me about who really i am. Your kindness, open hearted, humouris of course.

I have imagined that you have been said i am cute girl with nice personality. I hope it is not your bubbling on me. Mostly people have called me man eater. I knew it called and i kept it so deepest in my heart because it was hurted me anyway.

You present now looks like surveillance my weakness and growth me somehow. I have agreed with you where love could be eternal and your attention would be praised on me, this moment. Thank you for being in me in lovely day.

You once said to me, when you found soulmate, you would be with her in quite places. I am in deeply curiously what describe of that place. But, i have mine. The picture above maybe represented crib where you belong with your soulmate and you said it was me.

YoU BelOng To Me

2007-01-02T21:11:00.000+08:00

see the pyramids around the Nile
watch the sunrise from a tropic isle
just remember darling all the while -
you belong to me

see the marketplace in old Angier
send me photographs and souvenirs
just remember when a dream appears -
you belong to me

and I'll be so alone without you
maybe you'll be lonesome too

fly the ocean in a silver plane
see the jungle when it's wet with rain
just remember till you're home again -
you belong to me

oh I'll be so alone without you
maybe you'll be lonesome too

fly the ocean in a silver plane
see the jungle when it's wet with rain
just remember till you're home again -
you belong to me

PS: I Like this song to heard when i went to sleep...Nice Music....

See The Moonlight on Your Smile

2007-01-01T17:24:00.000+08:00

SeE YoU in ParAdise ToNight
WheN The SiLver MoOn CoVer Up My EyEs
Got Your Smile in Groovy Style
You An AnGel in My SiDe

I Have been Waiting this so Longtime
I DreAMed OvER aNd OveR AgAin
So MisticAbLe ReLy in My HolDing HaNDs
WhEn TouCh YoUr SmiLe

SO I JusT Seen You iN RiGht PlaCe
I WonDeriNg LivE So ImPoSibble To ReacH
BuT When See The MoonLight on YouR Smile
You So Belong To Me

Sadness Over Me

2006-12-25T21:08:00.000+08:00

i have many thousand times to moving forward then try find another reason why i must leave you behind. But, after i pushing my heart over my head, i was devastated knowing it was so impossible to it.

I haven seen you in many times within several described and places. On table,paper, sky, even star, then i was closed my eyes you were still there and knocking my heart so bad. I trying runaway from anything had mentioned about you. Little while i picking other pics on it, your gallery pullout them from my insanity.

I have still remembered your sadness ini your eyes when you said i never been existed without me. Your smile had been grain over and over so i couldnt helped my self to mourning anything sadness in your life.

Untill now, i have still heard your beautifull voice become orchestras so tender. Every moved we had ever been throuhgt still remains me today. Now and then, i wish God will showing us the right way for eternal love. I hope it.

Dark_Love_of_Me

2006-12-18T18:51:00.000+08:00

So, maybe it will be the end of my passion of you. I knew earlier, this circumtances never been right for us. Just look forward, i think i was doing wrong with some my decision. I thought i just make some played for me. Could you remember at that time where you pick me for difficult situation? But, i think you dont know about these things. Surely.

I dont know your agreement of my own decision. I stepped down so long way and i didnt find the best things would be good for us. I have just thingking this our relation so complicated and there was worst behaviour gonna followed it our history.

I have remains all that our memory before. So many sweetest things and i admitted, i never been so jealousy in my many related love history. See? You even dont know how my-day in currently. soon or later, i should go then left you behind for all that moment we had been created.

I hated know this is must ended and you not been telling by me. Dont blamed me for left you after these happens between us. I just trying be realized for good and bad things. I never trying to play your heart but inside of part in my side either, i felt guilty for something. Sorry for me, ever.....!!!!!!!

"It's All Coming Back To Me Now"

2006-12-16T21:47:00.000+08:00

if i heard this song, suddenly i remains that the day for someone who i loved. Then, this song represent my feeling, now and then, if i remembered him.

There were nights when the wind was so cold
That my body froze in bed
If I just listened to it
Right outside the window

There were days when the sun was so cruel
That all the tears turned to dust
And I just knew my eyes were
Drying up forever

I finished crying in the instant that you left
And I can't remember where or when or how
And I banished every memory you and I had ever made

But when you touch me like this
And you hold me like that
I just have to admit
That it's all coming back to me
When I touch you like this
And I hold you like that
It's so hard to believe but
It's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)

There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things I'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than any laws allow
Baby Baby

If I kiss you like this
And if you whisper like that
It was lost long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you want me like this
And if you need me like that
It was dead long ago
But it's all coming back to me
It's so hard to resist
And it's all coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now
But it's all coming back

There were those empty threats and hollow lies
And whenever you tried to hurt me
I just hurt you even worse
And so much deeper

There were hours that just went on for days
When alone at last we'd count up all the chances
That were lost to us forever

But you were history with the slamming of the door
And I made myself so strong again somehow
And I never wasted any of my time on you since then

But if I touch you like this
And if you kiss me like that
It was so long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you touch me like this
And if I kiss you like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)

There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things we'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than all your laws allow
Baby, Baby, Baby

When you touch me like this
And when you hold me like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
Then we see what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now

If you forgive me all this
If I forgive you all that
We forgive and forget
And it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
We see just what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall but it's all coming back to me now

(It's all coming back to me now)
And when you kiss me like this
(It's all coming back to me now)
And when I touch you like that
(It's all coming back to me now)
If you do it like this
(It's all coming back to me now)
And if we, , ,

mY_daRk_SiDe

2006-12-13T23:36:00.000+08:00

Maybe this not good time for complaint. I knew it and i felt it before. So, i have been trying pursuit anything facts behind me. Some guys come to me but i never knew what inside their thought. So, i must completely my sign of in it.

Lately days, i had confusing about my own self. I have caught my self stuck on dark labyrinth and put me away from light. I always being the same in this position. Good things, i look like find my joys, and bad things (as usual), i am so weakness fo severe damage would be happen to me. i think.

I must confessed my self. I telling my deeply inside heart for someone who i thought beloved with him.---> "one day you will find me as you ever promise to me. Has ever been just once you took me in your mind then tell your own heart how closely connected we are. That's way i trust in you wherever you been now. For bad and good times, love will brings us", saying me, so soft and tender.---->(some stupid words).

But, suddenly, i had laughing it more and more because i am insisted there some words does meant nothing for me. It was like shadow in dawn before sunrise comes and they are gone with lighting of the day. What and for who i created these words even a while i always made playing with some hearts over me and never realised it would be worst for the next, maybe especially for me,:(

I hated felt in love with you, i hated knowing you then made me so sad after that. But above all this, i hated you when i knew it you loved me so much than ever i thought before. You hurted me with your pure love.

bonding of love

2006-12-09T22:54:00.000+08:00

Awalnya, Aku tidak tahu, seperti apa rasanya
kehilangan malam-malam ketenangan itu. Karena, aku pun
sering bertanya, benarkah malam-malam kemarin memang
ada? Aku pun sendiri tidak mengerti apakah hari yang
lalu itu memang pernah ada atau hanya sekedar bunga
kerinduan pada makna kesejatian cinta yang dititipkan
Sang Khalik ke hati insan Ciptaan-Nya?

Tiba-tiba, aku menjadi seorang yang peragu terhadap
diriku sendiri. Aku mencoba melemur hatiku dalam
ketidaktahuan makna. Dan ternyata,ketika kucoba
bernyanyi dalam sunyi, seketika itu aku yakin, aku pun
telah kehilangan hari-hariku belakangan ini.

Siapakah si pencuri itu? Saat aku bertanya Pada-Nya,
Ia hanya tersenyum dan membelaiku dengan sebuah
bisikan yang lembut. "Tidurlah, karena Aku yakin
mencintai adalah seperti menantang matahari.

For my dearest, i always think of you day and at night.....

hater-dreamer-lover

2006-12-04T21:22:00.000+08:00

I have got my self trapped on two sides and hurt my anyway in that moment. I have been dreamed one day i found my true life would came to me and saying i will be happily ever after with someone who i beloved. When i was trying looking for my reflection, i did understood more people have opportunity doing the best in their life. I did but i felt some mistaken followed my footsteps.

I will always believe in enthusiasm connected with my own so i am no such great personality for making good kindness for me. I confession my own that i could not left behind on that way, someone whose leading my life for good things.

Good Lord, i missing my devoted love and i desperated for searching him. I hated times so slowly for me. Ever. Coz, i want his lovely face took over in my mind so i dont need painter making him so clearly. i have being hater, dreamer, and lover on this pattern.

most complicated things

2006-12-02T18:52:00.000+08:00

There are no flights for how i came runaway from it. Without seeming own personality who will know credible people so far. I knew, synthesizes behaviour in that other person might be entirely was not right. But, who will look at me then saying am i right for that principle.

Yes, i did responsible for managing anything from past and it would be giving me opportunity external kind, maybe. Perhaps even desirable man met me, i will talk later how i missed my man from my last loving life.

Cast with an eye toward authenticity rather than just seeing by heart meaning so complicated for me. And, after some poeple saying to me about the best things, i am then agreed for one reason. Love without needed.

for my_lovely_boy

2006-11-30T22:15:00.000+08:00

A LOVER'S COMPLAINT
A POEM BY
WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE

From off a hill whose concave womb reworded
A plaintful story from a sist'ring vale,
My spirits t'attend this double voice accorded,
And down I laid to list the sad-tuned tale,
Ere long espied a fickle maid full pale,
Tearing of papers, breaking rings atwain,
Storming her world with sorrow's wind and rain.
Upon her head a platted hive of straw,
Which fortified her visage from the sun,
Whereon the thought might think sometime it saw
The carcase of a beauty spent and done.
Time had not scythed all that youth begun,
Nor youth all quit, but spite of heaven's fell rage
Some beauty peeped through lattice of seared age.

Oft did she heave her napkin to her eyne,
Which on it had conceited characters,
Laund'ring the silken figures in the brine
That seasoned woe had pelleted in tears,
And often reading what contents it bears;
As often shrieking undistinguished woe
In clamours of all size, both high and low.

Sometimes her levelled eyes their carriage ride
As they did batt'ry to the spheres intend;
Sometime diverted their poor balls are tied
To th'orbed earth; sometimes they do extend
Their view right on; anon their gazes lend
To every place at once, and nowhere fixed,
The mind and sight distractedly commixed.

Her hair, nor loose nor tied in formal plait,
Proclaimed in her a careless hand of pride;
For some, untucked, descended her sheaved hat,
Hanging her pale and pined cheek beside;
Some in her threaden fillet still did bide,
And, true to bondage, would not break from thence,
Though slackly braided in loose negligence.

A thousand favours from a maund she drew
Of amber, crystal, and of beaded jet,
Which one by one she in a river threw,
Upon whose weeping margent she was set;
Like usury applying wet to wet,
Or monarch's hands that lets not bounty fall
Where want cries some, but where excess begs all.

Of folded schedules had she many a one,
Which she perused, sighed, tore, and gave the flood;
Cracked many a ring of posied gold and bone,
Bidding them find their sepulchres in mud;
Found yet moe letters sadly penned in blood,
With sleided silk feat and affectedly
Enswathed and sealed to curious secrecy.

These often bathed she in her fluxive eyes,
And often kissed, and often 'gan to tear;
Cried "O false blood, thou register of lies,
What unapproved witness dost thou bear!
Ink would have seemed more black and damned here!"
This said, in top of rage the lines she rents,
Big discontent so breaking their contents.

A reverend man that grazed his cattle nigh,
Sometime a blusterer that the ruffle knew
Of court, of city, and had let go by
The swiftest hours observed as they flew,
Towards this afflicted fancy fastly drew,
And, privileged by age, desires to know
In brief the grounds and motives of her woe.

So slides he down upon his grained bat,
And comely distant sits he by her side,
When he again desires her, being sat,
Her grievance with his hearing to divide.
If that from him there may be aught applied
Which may her suffering ecstasy assuage,
'Tis promised in the charity of age.

"Father," she says "though in me you behold
The injury of many a blasting hour,
Let it not tell your judgement I am old:
Not age, but sorrow over me hath power.
I might as yet have been a spreading flower,
Fresh to myself, if I had self-applied
Love to myself, and to no love beside.

"But, woe is me! too early I attended
A youthful suit -it was to gain my grace -
O, one by nature's outwards so commended
That maidens' eyes stuck over all his face.
Love lacked a dwelling and made him her place;
And when in his fair parts she did abide
She was new-lodged and newly deified.

"His browny locks did hang in crooked curls,
And every light occasion of the wind
Upon his lips their silken parcels hurls.
What's sweet to do, to do will aptly find:
Each eye that saw him did enchant the mind,
For on his visage was in little drawn
What largeness thinks in Paradise was sawn.

"Small show of man was yet upon his chin;
His phoenix down began but to appear,
Like unshorn velvet, on that termless skin,
Whose bare outbragged the web it seemed to wear;
Yet showed his visage by that cost more dear,
And nice affections wavering stood in doubt
If best were as it was, or best without.

"His qualities were beauteous as his form,
For maiden-tongued he was, and thereof free;
Yet, if men moved him, was he such a storm
As oft twixt May and April is to see,
When winds breathe sweet, unruly though they be.
His rudeness so with his authorized youth
Did livery falseness in a pride of truth.

"Well could he ride, and often men would say
`That horse his mettle from his rider takes:
Proud of subjection, noble by the sway,
What rounds, what bounds, what course, what stop he makes!'
And controversy hence a question takes,
Whether the horse by him became his deed,
Or he his manage by th' well-doing steed.

"But quickly on this side the verdict went:
His real habitude gave life and grace
To appertainings and to ornament,
Accomplished in himself, not in his case.
All aids, themselves made fairer by their place,
Came for additions; yet their purposed trim
Pieced not his grace, but were all graced by him.

"So on the tip of his subduing tongue
All kind of arguments and question deep,
All replication prompt, and reason strong,
For his advantage still did wake and sleep.
To make the weeper laugh, the laugher weep,
He had the dialect and different skill,
Catching all passions in his craft of will,

"That he did in the general bosom reign
Of young, of old, and sexes both enchanted,
To dwell with him in thoughts, or to remain
In personal duty, following where he haunted.
Consents bewitched, ere he desire, have granted,
And dialogued for him what he would say,
Asked their own wills, and made their wills obey.

"Many there were that did his picture get
To serve their eyes, and in it put their mind;
Like fools that in th'imagination set
The goodly objects which abroad they find
Of lands and mansions, theirs in thought assigned,
And labour in moe pleasures to bestow them
Than the true gouty landlord which doth owe them.

"So many have, that never touched his hand,
Sweetly supposed them mistress of his heart.
My woeful self, that did in freedom stand,
And was my own fee-simple, not in part,
What with his art in youth, and youth in art,
Threw my affections in his charmed power,
Reserved the stalk and gave him all my flower.

"Yet did I not, as some my equals did,
Demand of him, nor being desired yielded;
Finding myself in honour so forbid,
With safest distance I mine honour shielded.
Experience for me many bulwarks builded
Of proofs new-bleeding, which remained the foil
Of this false jewel and his amorous spoil.

"But ah, who ever shunned by precedent
The destined ill she must herself assay?
Or forced examples 'gainst her own content
To put the by-past perils in her way?
Counsel may stop awhile what will not stay,
For when we rage, advice is often seen
By blunting us to make our wills more keen.

"Nor gives it satisfaction to our blood
That we must curb it upon others' proof,
To be forbod the sweets that seems so good
For fear of harms that preach in our behoof.
O appetite, from judgement stand aloof!
The one a palate hath that needs will taste,
Though reason weep, and cry `It is thy last'.

"For further I could say this man's untrue,
And knew the patterns of his foul beguiling;
Heard where his plants in others' orchards grew;
Saw how deceits were gilded in his smiling;
Knew vows were ever brokers to defiling;
Thought characters and words merely but art,
And bastards of his foul adulterate heart.

"And long upon these terms I held my city,
Till thus he 'gan besiege me: `Gentle maid,
Have of my suffering youth some feeling pity,
And be not of my holy vows afraid.
That's to ye sworn to none was ever said;
For feasts of love I have been called unto,
Till now did ne'er invite nor never woo.

" `All my offences that abroad you see
Are errors of the blood, none of the mind;
Love made them not; with acture they may be,
Where neither party is nor true nor kind.
They sought their shame that so their shame did find;
And so much less of shame in me remains
By how much of me their reproach contains.

" `Among the many that mine eyes have seen,
Not one whose flame my heart so much as warmed,
Or my affection put to th' smallest teen,
Or any of my leisures ever charmed.
Harm have I done to them, but ne'er was harmed;
Kept hearts in liveries, but mine own was free,
And reigned commanding in his monarchy.

" `Look here what tributes wounded fancies sent me
Of pallid pearls and rubies red as blood,
Figuring that they their passions likewise lent me
Of grief and blushes, aptly understood
In bloodless white and the encrimsoned mood -
Effects of terror and dear modesty,
Encamped in hearts, but fighting outwardly.

" `And lo, behold these talents of their hair,
With twisted metal amorously impleached,
I have received from many a several fair,
Their kind acceptance weepingly beseeched,
With the annexions of fair gems enriched,
And deep-brained sonnets that did amplify
Each stone's dear nature, worth, and quality.

" `The diamond? -why, 'twas beautiful and hard,
Whereto his invised properties did tend;
The deep-green em'rald, in whose fresh regard
Weak sights their sickly radiance do amend;
The heaven-hued sapphire and the opal blend
With objects manifold: each several stone,
With wit well blazoned, smiled or made some moan.
" `Lo, all these trophies of affections hot,
Of pensived and subdued desires the tender,
Nature hath charged me that I hoard them not,
But yield them up where I myself must render -
That is to you, my origin and ender;
For these, of force, must your oblations be,
Since I their altar, you enpatron me.

" `O then advance of yours that phraseless hand,
Whose white weighs down the airy scale of praise.
Take all these similes to your own command,
Hallowed with sighs that burning lungs did raise.
What me your minister, for you obeys,
Works under you, and to your audit comes
Their distract parcels in combined sums.

" `Lo, this device was sent me from a nun,
A sister sanctified, of holiest note,
Which late her noble suit in court did shun,
Whose rarest havings made the blossoms dote;
For she was sought by spirits of richest coat,
But kept cold distance, and did thence remove
To spend her living in eternal love.

" `But, O my sweet, what labour is't to leave
The thing we have not, mast'ring what not strives,
Planing the place which did no form receive,
Playing patient sports in unconstrained gyves!
She that her fame so to herself contrives,
The scars of battle scapeth by the flight,
And makes her absence valiant, not her might.

" `O pardon me, in that my boast is true!
The accident which brought me to her eye
Upon the moment did her force subdue,
And now she would the caged cloister fly:
Religious love put out religion's eye.
Not to be tempted, would she be immured,
And now to tempt, all liberty procured.

" `How mighty then you are, O hear me tell!
The broken bosoms that to me belong
Have emptied all their fountains in my well,
And mine I pour your ocean all among.
I strong o'er them, and you o'er me being strong,
Must for your victory us all congest,
As compound love to physic your cold breast.

" `My parts had power to charm a sacred nun,
Who, disciplined, ay, dieted in grace,
Believed her eyes when they t'assail begun,
All vows and consecrations giving place.
O most potential love! -vow, bond, nor space,
In thee hath neither sting, knot, nor confine,
For thou art all, and all things else are thine.

" `When thou impressest, what are precepts worth
Of stale example? When thou wilt inflame,
How coldly those impediments stand forth,
Of wealth, of filial fear, law, kindred, fame!
Love's arms are peace, 'gainst rule, 'gainst sense, 'gainst shame;
And sweetens, in the suff'ring pangs it bears,
The aloes of all forces, shocks, and fears.

" `Now all these hearts that do on mine depend,
Feeling it break, with bleeding groans they pine,
And supplicant their sighs to you extend,
To leave the batt'ry that you make 'gainst mine,
Lending soft audience to my sweet design,
And credent soul to that strong-bonded oath
That shall prefer and undertake my troth.'

"This said, his wat'ry eyes he did dismount,
whose sights till then were levelled on my face;
Each cheek a river running from a fount
With brinish current downward flowed apace.
O how the channel to the stream gave grace!
Who glazed with crystal gate the glowing roses
That flame through water which their hue encloses.

"O father, what a hell of witchcraft lies
In the small orb of one particular tear!
But with the inundation of the eyes
What rocky heart to water will not wear?
What breast so cold that is not warmed here?
O cleft effect! Cold modesty, hot wrath,
Both fire from hence and chill extincture hath.

"For lo, his passion, but an art of craft,
Even there resolved my reason into tears;
There my white stole of chastity I daffed,
Shook off my sober guards and civil fears;
Appear to him as he to me appears,
All melting; though our drops this diff'rence bore:
His poisoned me, and mine did him restore.

"In him a plenitude of subtle matter,
Applied to cautels, all strange forms receives,
Of burning blushes or of weeping water,
Or swooning paleness; and he takes and leaves,
In either's aptness, as it best deceives,
To blush at speeches rank, to weep at woes,
Or to turn white and swoon at tragic shows,

"That not a heart which in his level came
Could scape the hail of his all-hurting aim,
Showing fair nature is both kind and tame;
And, veiled in them, did win whom he would maim.
Against the thing he sought he would exclaim;
When he most burned in heart-wished luxury
He preached pure maid and praised cold chastity.

"Thus merely with the garment of a grace
The naked and concealed fiend he covered,
That th'unexperient gave the tempter place,
Which like a cherubin above them hovered.
Who, young and simple, would not be so lovered?
Ay me, I fell; and yet do question make
What I should do again for such a sake.

"O, that infected moisture of his eye,
O, that false fire which in his cheek so glowed,
O, that forced thunder from his heart did fly,
O, that sad breath his spongy lungs bestowed,
O, all that borrowed motion, seeming owed,
Would yet again betray the fore-betrayed,
And new pervert a reconciled maid."

sweet couple

2006-11-29T21:13:00.000+08:00

so many question in my life

2006-11-28T14:45:00.000+08:00

last night, i was dreaming so badly. No something scared but memorized about someone still haunted me. I walked down on quite street then suddenly he came and pulled over me with his hands.

i was not scared for his acted. But, i was afraid for his biggest love for me. I have scent his odor sorrounded me and unfortunately i could not escaped from itu. It was haunted my whole night.

I Felt down on my bed. Why he was come in my life after happened between us. I was trying eliminated everything whereas would be so make me desperated. A While i woke up i was very free of worry i found my self did not reached by him. Thank God, for helped me.

my_soulmate

2006-11-27T21:52:00.000+08:00

I have seen you in many times in my dream. Drawing my life with your fingers. All of this, i never understand, why people were trying separated us whereas i have feeling then you are my soulmate.

Then, i wish, i could runaway with you, ever....!!!!!!

PS: Always missing you in this moment

Denting

2006-11-24T21:11:00.000+08:00

Adakah yang lebih indah dari sebuah rindu yang terkatakan lewat malam sepi dan ketika lelap masuk menjadi pemberi jarak antara kita. Sebuah rindu yang selalu ada dan tak pernah hilang meski wajah dan senyumannya hanya samar dalam bayangan. Lagu Melly ini sebuah pembuktian tentang absurditas sebuah rindu

Denting yang berbunyi dari dinding kamarku
sedarkan diriku dari lamunan panjang
Tak terasa malam kini semakin larut
Ku masih terjaga

Sayang kau dimana aku ingin bersama
Aku butuh semua untuk tepiskan rindu
Mungkinkah kau disana merasa yang sama
Seperti dinginku di malam ini

Rintik gerimis mengundang kekasih di malam ini
Kita menari dalam rindu yang indah
Sepi ku rasa hatiku saat ini oh sayangku
Jika kau disini aku tenang

dreaming of me

2006-11-22T22:10:00.000+08:00

i would rather you here and standing beside than you just dreaming of me from so far.On the right side, i supposed would leading you into a romance life but some pieces of me really needed you at once now inside my heart.

Some lovers seen so adorable and talking with sweetest things. But, you know that, i never want you said something. It doesn’t take long before and we both knew there many reason why our feeling being connected so deeply.

Maybe it just time and everybody knows how strong and strange about love. Who will denied it. Life so polished by it and later i knew why people would sacrifice everything for love. It just started little while some friction come over me but i thought i will swept away it from our lines.

How sweet yours today?????? Just dreaming of me. Me Only and ever after

who wants to live forever

2006-11-21T21:12:00.000+08:00

Ini adalah salah satu lagu favoritku dan dengan kedalaman makna dari liriknya membawa aku dalam sebuah ketenangan pencarian hidup. Who wants to Live Forever by Sarah Brigthman

Theres no time for us,
Theres no place for us,
What is this thing that builds our dreams,
Yet slips away from us.

Who wants to live forever,
Who wants to live forever, .....?

Theres no chance for us,
Its all decided for us,
This world has only one sweet moment
Set aside for us.

Who wants to live forever,
Who wants to live forever, .....?

Now touch my tears with your lips,
Touch my world with your fingertips,
And we can have forever,
And we can love forever,
Forever is our today.

Who wants to live forever,
Who wants to live forever, .....?

Who waits forever anyway

I miss my cats

2006-11-20T22:12:00.000+08:00

where are they now?
I wish they are come and into my hugs
where are they now
I wish i could get more happines now and then.......
misss yaa.......